I’ve been getting asked a lot lately about what’s been going on with our baby journey. I know it’s been so long since I posted an update. Honestly I think with everything going on, I shut down a little bit. I was working a ton, going to school full time, trying to have a life, and trying to have a baby. Every month that went by with no luck, I knew we were getting closer and closer to needing to go to a specialist and that completely terrified me.
I feel pretty silly now that I was so against seeing a specialist. I was just so worried that we’d get bad news. I didn’t want to hear someone tell me this just wasn’t going to happen for us. We’ve talked extensively about our boundaries when it comes to fertility treatments, and we both draw our line at IVF. Bryson and I both know and deeply love people who have had to go that route, and we just know it’s not right for us. So, every time I thought about having to go, I also thought of all the heartbreak it could bring and I just wanted to avoid it.
Let me tell ‘ya, I wish we had just started with a specialist to begin with. Our first meeting with our new (and way, way improved) doctor had us both leaving the office in an “optimism high”. I have never felt so good about the direction we were going. It’s so reassuring when someone who literally makes people have babies for a living tells you it’ll be easy – we just need to do some tweaking.
Before any tweaking could happen, there were SO MANY tests to be done.
Bryson had to get a semen analysis, and of course, passed with flying colors. No bitterness at all…ha!
I however, have problems on problems. My thyroid is off. My blood sugar is off. I have multiple follicles that just aren’t maturing (but apparently that shows great fertility “potential”). Just all the hormone issues over here.
I got to watch as my ultrasound was performed, showing me just how many follicles I had. It was a huge relief to see that I had so many, and that they are healthy. Now if we can just get those guys to do their damn job, that would be great.
I also had to get an HSG done. If you don’t know what that is, it’s a procedure to see if the uterus and fallopian tubes are open and functioning properly. This was the test I was the most anxious about. You guys should google it. It’s scary. Of course I did a ton of research about it and girls were either saying it was as painless as a pap-smear, or as painful as childbirth. The latter is what sent my anxiety sky high, haha.
The doctor takes a catheter and inserts it into the cervix, and then releases dye into the uterus. If the dye goes into the uterus and fallopian tubes without problem, there’s no blockage. If there’s a blockage, it means the egg cannot get to the uterus, which is a huge problem. The only way to correct this issue is surgery. I was so relieved when I saw the dye spread like wildfire in all the right places, I broke into total happy sobs. It was a great day, for sure.
So, with all the testing I got done, I have been officially diagnosed with PCOS. I had a feeling I this was what was going on with me. I don’t have any cysts, but my hormones are crazy and the fact that I have such a high number of follicles and they aren’t growing or releasing is a huge indicator.
Although I was super overwhelmed at first with all the issues I seem to have, I know I am really lucky. PCOS is supper common, and my doctor is so sure we can overcome these obstacles and be pregnant in the next few months. Actually, her exact words were “in the next 3 months”. I know it could be a lot worse for us and I am so grateful for all the great news.
Our plan is to keep using the Femara, but from now on, I’m going to be getting monitored. I’ll be able to see via ultrasound if my follicles have matured enough, and if not, my doctor will intervene to help them out before taking a “trigger shot“. A trigger shot is a shot I’ll give myself to signal my body to release the egg within 36 hours. I’m also on a thyroid medication, and a medication for insulin resistance. Both of which were making me super sick for WEEKS. I only just started feeling normal again.
This baby better be REAL cute! haha
I’ve also made it a priority to make sure myself and my marriage are as healthy as possible. I’m taking a huge work break soon and I won’t be going to school this semester. I need to feel less stressed as we go forward with fertility treatments, and I need more time to spend doing things I enjoy with my husband. It’s already been such a great change for me.
So that’s it! I’m currently waiting for my period to come so we can get going with this. We are super ready!
Also, I should mention that the odds of multiples increases with these drugs, and I keep having dreams of twins. Bryson’s super stoked….haha!;)