Being this girl’s mama is my greatest honor. Every single day I’m overcome with this insane heartache that she’s not here anymore. It’s something I will never be able to express. I find a lot of comfort and happiness knowing that her few hours with us were spent being cuddled and adored by friends and family. I would be lying if I said I were thrilled to share these pictures (the mama bear in me wants to keep them all hoarded for myself), but her story is too beautiful not to share. I hope that viewing a glimpse of her time with us will bring you love and happiness, too.
Look at that nose. That is my nose, people. Knew it the minute I laid eyes on it. I never knew a love like this existed until I saw that beautiful face for the first time.
Amelia & daddy
Amelia & Grandma/Ama (Bryson’s mom)
Amelia & Aunt Monika
Amelia & Grandma Dee (my grandma)
Amelia and Aunt Shanna (my sister)
Amelia & Grandma and Grandpa (my parents)
Amelia and Papa (Bryson’s dad)
Amelia & Uncle Robert (Bryson’s best friend)
Amelia and Auntie Kim (my best friend)
When we first told people about Amelia dying, we also made sure they knew we didn’t need them to come to the hospital. One of the biggest blessings in my life is that those people didn’t listen. I thought I wanted to keep all of this private between Bryson and I, and boy was I wrong. I am beyond overflowing with appreciation that some of the people we love most in the world got to hold our baby. She got to experience some of the craziness of her family and be held by her parent’s best friends. I know some of these pictures look pretty sad, but I swear that this was the best day of my life. If a single thing that day had been different, I think I’d be singing a different tune. I am forever grateful for every second I got to be with her. I am grateful for God and His mercy on me, and I am thankful that if she can’t be with us, she is with the only one who loves her more than we do.